loving my weirdo children

I’ve spent most of my life being weird. For a long time, I was frustrated with that fact. I wanted to fit in. It took meeting my husband & having him “love me, just as I am” for me to truly accept myself. Of course, I didn’t like/love/accept myself as I was right away. It took me a bit to get through all of the negativity that I had believed about myself for so long. It took me about 6 years of having thetallone in my life before I had a “breakthrough” to being glad that God made me the way I was. That was quite a few years ago, now, and I never thought that God would decide to gift me with two lovely little girls who are as weird as I am (sometimes more weird than I am!). thetallone, I like to say, passes for normal. When I introduce him to people, he seems normal. That is, until he starts chatting about Star Wars, Star Trek, or any of his other geeky things he loves. I do love that he is actually a geek & I am quite amused that he can pass as normal. Continue reading “loving my weirdo children”

movies that are too real

I enjoy movies. I like different kinds of movies, mostly the kind that have an ending where almost everyone ends up happy (or @ least content & resolved of issues!). But, movies that are too real… those I don’t enjoy as much. One I just watched it called “Motherhood” with Uma Thurman, Anthony Edwards, and Minnie Driver. It’s about a mother who tries to write a daily blog to keep her writing skills up to par & to keep herself from getting lost in “motherhood.” She & her husband work out a way for her to do both, @ the end of the movie. I have been thinking a lot recently about this very thing. I don’t think that it matters whether you are a stay @ home mom, or a working mom (both types of moms are full-time, anyway!), but it is very easy to get consumed by your children & all that must be done to take care of them. So, the problem is finding the balance between staying involved & having a non-child life as well. It’s a difficult thing. When I just had theblondeone I think that it was easier for me, because she has always been a very good independent player & it has always been a very simple child to entertain (mostly just putting something in front of her that interests her & she is content). I was still able to read many books & was able to keep up with some of my craft stuff. Now that theminione has arrived in our lives, I have much less free time to keep up with “just me” things. I read some books, but have barely any time for my crafts. I wouldn’t want my children to be gone, but the addition of any others requires some serious thought on my part! Continue reading “movies that are too real”